Lose The Weight : A Different Kind of New Year’s Resolution

A Different Kind of New Year’s Resolution

Every January, the trailheads fill up.

Gym parking lots overflow. New shoes hit the pavement. Promises are made under fluorescent lights and hopeful headlines: This is the year.

Lose weight.
Get disciplined.
Become better.

But no one asks the quieter question. The one that matters far more on a long climb:

What kind of weight are you actually carrying?

Because some weight doesn’t show up on a scale.
Some weight doesn’t change your reflection.
Some weight only reveals itself five miles in, when your breath shortens, your pace slows, and the joy that once pulled you forward begins to leak out of the day.

That’s the weight I want to lose this year.

Not body weight.
Pack weight.

The invisible load of expectations like fear, pride, and borrowed narratives we’ve been hauling so long we forgot they weren’t issued at birth.

The Weight We Never Meant to Carry

Every long hike starts the same way; with optimism and overpacking.

Extra layers. Backup batteries. Snacks for every possible craving. Tools you might need. The pack feels reassuring at the trailhead. Heavy, yes…but comforting. Prepared.

Then the trail climbs upward.

By mile three, you feel it in your hips. By mile six, your shoulders ache. Somewhere between the switchbacks and the false summit, you realize something unsettling:

What once felt like preparation is now the thing slowing you down.

Life works the same way.

We pick up expectations early, quietly, and unintentionally:

• Be agreeable.
• Be impressive.
• Be low-maintenance.
• Be strong.
• Don’t need too much.
• Don’t feel too much.

Some come from family systems.
Some from faith communities.
Some from culture, masculinity, productivity, or survival itself.

Layer on fear: the fear of loss, rejection, being misunderstood, being mischaracterized. Then add pride: the kind that looks like strength from the outside but functions like isolation on the inside.

Before you know it, you’re exhausted. Not because the trail is impossible, but because the load is unnecessary.

Fear, Pride, and the Illusion of Control

Fear and pride make strange trail partners.

Fear whispers, You’re not safe.
Pride replies, You don’t need help.

Together, they convince us to keep carrying what’s crushing us.

From a psychological perspective, this makes sense. When life feels uncertain, the nervous system seeks control. Expectations become handholds. Pride becomes armor. Fear sharpens vigilance.

Acceptance and Commitment Therapy (ACT) calls this experiential avoidance. The attempt to control or escape uncomfortable internal experiences rather than making room for them (Hayes et al., 2012). We tighten our grip on expectations not because they help us thrive, but because they promise predictability.

But the body knows.

The shoulders tighten.
The breath shortens.
Joy narrows.
Presence thins.

What once protected us early in life now limits us later

Cognitive Fusion: When the Pack Becomes Identity

One of the most subtle forms of weight is cognitive fusion; when we stop having thoughts and start being them.

• I must not disappoint.
• I should be further along.
• If I let go, everything will fall apart.

These thoughts feel like facts. They ride so close to the nervous system that questioning them feels dangerous.

ACT research shows that cognitive fusion increases psychological distress and rigidity, while defusion (creating space between ourselves and our thoughts) restores flexibility and resilience (Hayes et al., 2012).

In trail terms: we forget we can take the pack off.

We confuse heaviness with importance.
We assume suffering equals meaning.
We believe endurance is the same thing as wisdom.

It isn’t.

Pride as a Hidden Load

Pride rarely announces itself as pride.

It sounds more like:

• I’ll handle it.
• I don’t want to burden anyone.
• Other people have it worse.
• I should be able to carry this.

This is the pride of self-reliance without interdependence. The kind that looks noble but functions like isolation.

Research on shame and vulnerability shows that self-worth becomes fragile when it’s tethered to performance or independence (Brown, 2012). When pride prevents us from asking for help, it doesn’t protect dignity…it erodes it.

On the trail, refusing to adjust your pack doesn’t make you strong. It makes you injured.

The Cost of Carrying Other People’s Expectations

One of the heaviest loads we carry is other people’s comfort.

Their expectations of who we should be.
Their narratives about our choices.
Their interpretations of our silence, boundaries, or growth.

Family systems theory reminds us that roles established early (peacemaker, achiever, caretaker, problem-solver) tend to persist unless consciously examined (Bowen, 1978).

And when we challenge those roles? The system resists.

Letting go of expectations doesn’t mean you stop caring.
It means you stop contorting.

It means choosing integrity over approval.
Alignment over performance.
Truth over peacekeeping.

That’s not selfishness.
That’s differentiation.

The Nervous System Knows What the Scale Can’t Measure

Long before the mind catches up, the body keeps score.

Chronic emotional load (fear, vigilance, suppression) keeps the nervous system in a state of low-grade threat. Over time, this narrows the window of tolerance, reducing our capacity for joy, creativity, and connection (Siegel, 2012).

You might still be functioning.
But you’re not flourishing.

Losing this kind of weight isn’t about discipline.
It’s about discernment.

Asking:

• What am I carrying that no longer serves me?
• What did I pick up to survive that I no longer need to live?
• What would happen if I trusted myself to set this down?

Setting the Pack Down: The Courage of Letting Go

There’s a moment on any hard climb when the question shifts.

You stop asking, Can I do this?
And start asking, Why am I doing it this way?

That question changes everything.

On the trail, experienced hikers regularly reassess:

• What’s essential?
• What’s redundant?
• What’s fear masquerading as preparation?

Letting go isn’t failure.
It’s wisdom.

You keep what keeps you alive.
You release what slows you down.

The same is true here.

Letting go of fear doesn’t mean pretending you’re not afraid.
Letting go of pride doesn’t mean shrinking; it means softening.
Letting go of expectations doesn’t mean abandoning responsibility; it means choosing authenticity.

A New Year Without Hustle

Resolution culture often frames growth as conquest.

More discipline.
More control.
More effort.

But the wilderness teaches a different lesson.

Sometimes progress comes not from pushing harder—but from carrying less.

Research consistently shows that psychological flexibility (not willpower) is the strongest predictor of long-term wellbeing (Kashdan & Rottenberg, 2010). Flexibility requires space. And space requires letting go.

This year, I’m not chasing a smaller body.

I’m chasing a lighter spirit.

I want to lose:

• The weight of proving.
• The weight of performing.
• The weight of managing perceptions.
• The weight of carrying other people’s peace at the expense of my own.

I want to walk into this year like a hiker who finally knows what belongs in the pack; and what can be left at the trailhead.

What Remains When the Weight Is Gone

Here’s the quiet truth:

When you set unnecessary weight down, you don’t become empty.

You become available.

Available for presence.
For play.
For grief you no longer rush past.
For joy that doesn’t need justification.

You walk slower; but farther.
You breathe deeper; but strain less.
You listen better; to yourself, to others, to the trail beneath your feet.

That’s not regression.

That’s return.

Reflection Prompts

If your life were a long climb:

1. What’s one expectation you’ve been carrying that no longer fits who you are?
2. Where has fear convinced you to overpack?
3. What would it feel like to set one thing down this year?

You don’t have to empty the pack all at once.

Just start with one thing.

The Lighter Way Forward

There’s a quieter kind of strength that doesn’t announce itself.

It shows up as discernment.
As boundaries.
As rest.
As the courage to disappoint others rather than abandon yourself.

This year, may we lose the weight that was never ours to begin with.

And may we discover that the trail is more generous than we were taught to believe.